Do you ever have moments where just a twinge of doubt creeps into your heart when you recall verses like Romans 8:28 and think, but how in the world is God using this for good?
That usually happens to me in situations of tragedy, depression, and seasons of waiting.
You know what I mean? Those times when you’re waiting to graduate high school, to finish those pesky generals in college, to marry your boyfriend . . . to land your dream job, to get to the top of your career . . . to retire . . .
The truth is, we’re always waiting for something in life. I hate to be a downer but, the waiting never ends.
I’m most susceptible to anxiety when I’m unable to plan out the next few months ahead.
My brain goes into complete overdrive and I psych myself out with tasks that would be far better off to be left to the Lord in prayer.
Am I the only one who sometimes prays about a situation and then immediately assume I have all the power to figure out how to plan the next 11 years of my life?
But, when I’m feeling defeated and hopelessly lost, the Lord shows up and gives me a glimpse of what the good he’s promised is in my situation.
The Lord is Unchanging
I’ve come to realize sometimes my biggest challenge to overcome my distrust in God is a false understanding of who he is.
Sometimes I need a reminder that no earthly dwelling has the ability to provide me comfort, only the Lord and eternity with him can satisfy my soul and give me peace.
If I’m worried about the future and what God will ask me to do, usually it’s because he seems unpredictable and the unpredictable frightens me.
But I must not confuse my understanding of God’s character with my flawed, limited perception of his plans.
God’s plans seem unpredictable to me because, well, he’s God and knows things my small mind can never comprehend this side of heaven (just read the last few chapters of Job!).
While God’s plans can sometimes make me feel like I’m on a wild goose chase, God himself is unchanging, and because of that, I can trust him.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8, ESV)
God Isn’t Wasting Our Waiting
Sometimes leaving plans unrevealed, confidential, and hidden from our knowledge is the very thing we need in order to grow in Christlikeness.
It stretches our faith, produces endurance, encourages us to submit our weaknesses to the Lord and rely on his strength.
As we continue to wait, let’s not lose hope while we’re growing. Sometimes you can’t tell you’ve matured until you look back weeks later.
As receive what we’ve waited for, let’s not put our hope in what’s being given, but in the Giver himself. Our plans can change course, but our God is unchanging.
Let’s remember Christ’s biggest goal is always making us more like himself, so that we may be a light to others and enjoy him more.