Sometimes leaving plans unrevealed, confidential, and hidden from our knowledge is the very thing we need in order to grow in Christlikeness. It stretches our faith, produces endurance, encourages us to submit our weaknesses to the Lord and rely on his strength.
Sometimes I feel like a hot-mess Christian.
I beat myself up because there seems to always be at least one thing wrong or challenging in my life. Why can’t I meet with a friend for once and not have any kind of struggle to confess?
But the Lord is so kind to those like me who feel stressed out and anxious about our situations. When I’m feeling defeated he so gently reminds me it’s not my situation that determines my faith – it’s how I react to those situations that will inspire or encourage others in the Lord.
I get it. You have big dreams, you have plenty of items on your “bucket list”, and your planner is filled with all the goals just waiting to be completed. I’m right there with you – I want to accomplish great things in my life. I want to leave a legacy worth remembering. I want to use my life to positively impact many others.
But the greatest treasure on all of earth and in heaven is Jesus Christ. No purpose is greater, no calling higher, no legacy worth more than knowing Christ and desiring him above all else. Nothing else will satisfy, nothing else sustains, none other has the salvation power we all so desperately need. We have full and complete access to the Lord because of Jesus, only Jesus!
I melted into a puddle of despair as the reality of tonight’s dinner situation sunk in. My husband insisted it was fine (even though he admitted that whole wheat pasta tastes like cardboard to him the night before) and nodded in agreement that we couldn’t just throw away perfectly good – well, perhaps simply edible – food. Still, my heart turned sour as I thought about all of the times I’ve disappointed my husband with what I made to put on our plates.
The truth is, being Silas’ wife was the no-deal-breaker promise I needed to force me to trust God – no matter what – in our relationship. I married Silas because I knew I would be able to follow God better, and even in our few months of marriage that has proven to be true.
However, a loving Pastor gave me one of the greatest gifts a Pastor could give to a bride-to-be. A few phone calls and texts later, and he arranged a coffee date for me and a former military/current police wife. I gleaned so much wisdom and encouragement from Bethany over that java in Kansas City.
To be honest, I struggled big-time with contentment in my singleness before my husband and I tied the knot earlier this year. I longed for the days I would be married already. I just wanted that covenantal, exclusive, never-ending love with Silas that marriage promised me. I wasn’t going to be happy until I had it for myself.